I know I like to play the “If only …” game. A game I play with the past, present, and future. If only I had done this or that at some particular time or reacted to a situation as I would have reacted to it after plenty of afterthought and analysis. It is much easier to assign various blame-weights to events and circumstances that prevent you from doing what I would have done. To think about all the pain I could have avoided.

Now that I have adequately reflected on something and identified root causes I am all ready to fix that problem; and I will do so next Monday or perhaps the Monday after that. Never put off until tomorrow what you can put off “putting off” until the day after tomorrow.

Surely, this time around I am going to get serious about the spiritual life.

I find it can be such a trap to dwell in my own woundedness. All the lacks I perceive in myself. I feel like an impostor even feeling like I might have impostor syndrome. That I will be caught in all my BS. Both craving attention and scared to death when I get any; knowing it is undeserved. In those moments of self-pity I turn to the “If only …” game to assign those blame-weights to circumstances, events, and persons.

Perhaps, some form of sanity returns when I see the mask reveal for what is keeping me from growing in holiness.

Almost all of those wounds I gripe internally about are self-inflicted. My own friendly-fire. Yet I have some gratitude for those exact same wounds. Suffering can be sanctified and directed towards helping other persons. A heightened awareness of the pains and sufferings of others, to bring me out of myself into the Body of Christ.

Plus I write things like this to poke fun at myself and my overwrought-seriousness at times. If you you learn to laugh at yourself, you will have a lifetime of laughter and plenty of opportunity for it.

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Scripture

What is your distance from Jesus on the Cross?

by Jeffrey Miller August 29, 2025September 3, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

After Mass this morning, I was reflecting on the Gospel and the death of John the Baptist.

29 When his disciples heard of it, they came and took his body and laid it in a tomb. (Mk 6:29, ESVCE)

Herod seemed to have some fixation on John the Baptist, invoking both fear and perhaps a grudging respect for him as a holy man. Many prophets experienced what that kind of grudging respect leads to. Such rulers could admire fearfulness in telling the truth, as long as it was not directly towards them. When news of his death was spread, John’s disciples came to claim the beheaded body, to be laid into a tomb. His disciples might have been worried about the repercussions of this regarding being disciples of a man who had raised the ire of Herodias. Yet they came, and this reminded me of Jesus’ disciples and that day at Calvary.

I remember, some years ago, a caller asked Jimmy Akin on Catholic Answers Live about Luke 23:49.

In Luke 23:49, it refers to “all these acquaintances and women” watching the crucifixion. Were the apostles included in that group of acquaintances? Time mark: 06:29

Jimmy had replied that this was the inference that they were there. He talks about why this is likely, and the Christian art has done us some disservice in showing only the women and the beloved disciples at Calvary. He states that this is not specifically what the Gospels say. Since then, I have heard him reference this at other times.

For me, this opens up the scene of Jesus’ crucifixion and death more. It has been common to think of all the other disciples slinking off after Jesus’ arrest. To think of a much smaller stage with Jesus, the two thieves, Mary, John, the other women disciples, and the detractors mocking Jesus. This is a scene with a hyper-focus by the Gospel writers on what salvation history has led to, and God’s love for us that drove Jesus’ sacrifice. Not a blow by blow account and census regarding everyone who was there and their reactions.

Peter, after Jesus’ arrest, makes his way to the courtyard to at the minimum get news of what was happening. It was certainly not Peter’s finest day in denying him three times, but he was there. When the cock crowed, and he realized what his denial meant, he wept. Did these tears and his sorrow at his betrayal just lead him to go somewhere else for a while? To think that the impetuous Peter, would not have found his way to Calvary after such sorrow?

I am also thinking about the Apostle Thomas, who had been aware of the danger Jesus was in and their own danger. “Let us also go, that we may die with Him” (John 11:16) How would Thomas having witnessed the death of Jesus play a part in his denial of Jesus’ resurrection. It might be one thing to hear reports of Jesus’ death and then hear reports of his resurrection. It is quite another to have experienced the manner of his death and what led up to it.

I also think of James, the brother of John. St. James becomes the first Apostle to be martyred. That only one of the “Sons of Thunder” would be present there is of course possible, but I like to think it to be more fruitful to think about his presence there. We don’t know with any kind of certainty how many apostles and other disciples were there that day, other than the persons specifically stated.

In my imagination, I can see the apostles and other disciples keeping their distance from the cross. Not wanting to be noticed by others and not wanting to intrude on Mary and the others directly with Jesus. That some of them might have grouped together to commiserate stayed apart to not draw attention. Regardless, they would not have been just stoic observers. This scene and the resurrection appearances seem to me to be tied together regarding their subsequent witness to the truth.

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Saints Scripture

Feast of St. Thomas, Apostle

by Jeffrey Miller July 3, 2025July 3, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

Today being the Feast of Saint Thomas, Apostle, I got to wondering about it being celebrated on July 3rd. I was thinking about this as is it is also the birthday of my late wife Socorro and her role for me in my moving from unbelief to belief.

From what I could gleam, the celebration on July 3rd is based on the transfer of St. Thomas’s relics from Mylapore, India to Edessa (in modern-day Urfa, Turkey) around the 3rd or 4th century. In the Roman Rite of the Church his feast day was on December 21st, but was moved as part of the calendar reform in 1969 to match the Syriac tradition.

The label “Doubting Thomas” sometimes comes up as being unfair to tag him with this when there was a lot of disbelief among the apostles, both while Jesus was alive and in the aftermath of his death and resurrection. As a specific label or idiom, it is fairly modern and arose likely in the late 17th century in early modern English.

The Gospels give us little information regarding Thomas. The Synoptic Gospels only list his name. It is only in the Gospel of St. John is where we get more information on St. Thomas.

AUGUSTINE. (Tr. cxxi.) The nails had pierced His hands, the lance had pierced His side. For the healing of doubting hearts, the marks of the wounds were still preserved.

St. Augustine, Bishop of Hippo, A.D. 396. [1]

GREGORY. (Hom. xxvi.) It was not an accident that that particular disciple was not present. The Divine mercy ordained that a doubting disciple should, by feeling in his Master the wounds of the flesh, heal in us the wounds of unbelief. The unbelief of Thomas is more profitable to our faith, than the belief of the other disciples; for, the touch by which he is brought to believe, confirming our minds in belief, beyond all question.

St Gregory I. Pope, A.D. 590.[2]

I can so easily identify with Thomas’ apparent empiricism here, yet there seems to me to be much more here than doubt. There was so much faith underlying that doubt that it did not seem to take much to make the movement from disbelief into the wonderful Dominus meus, et Deus meus, “My Lord and my God!” A phrase that has echoed through time during the consecrations of the Eucharistic elements and recited by so many in their own affirmative joy in the presence of our Eucharistic Lord at Mass.

One other aspect regarding the mentions of St. Thomas in the Gospel of John is for me something I also want to reflect on more. There is an intellectual honesty regarding Thomas in that it must have been quite difficult for him to say what he did in the presence of Jesus and the other apostles. Jesus’ appearance was not something to just mull over and sort out later on when he was by himself. It would have been easier to just go along with the others in their acceptance, even if he might have felt that this was too good to be true. Forthrightly stating your doubts allows others to address them.

“But let us go to him.” So Thomas, called the Twin, said to his fellow disciples, “Let us also go, that we may die with him.” (Jn 11:15–16 ESV-CE)

St. Thomas did not withhold his assessment of the danger they were in by going to Bethany after they got the news of the death of Lazarus.

Thomas said to him, “Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?” (Jn 14:5, ESV-CE)

It is stunning how much St. Thomas’s honest reactions elicit from Jesus. Here, Jesus replies to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life …”

Thinking also about St. John Henry Newman’s “Ten thousand difficulties do not make one doubt,” I can understand why “Ten thousand difficulties Thomas”, never caught on. Still, I wish more people understood that honest questions and difficulties regarding the faith are not an intellectual rejection of faith.

While the details of St. Thomas’ martyrdom are historically uncertain, there is a certain irony in Thomas saying “and place my hand into his side” to be speared to death.

St Thomas Aquinas, pp. 606, Catena Aurea: Commentary on the Four Gospels, Collected out of the Works of the Fathers: St. John. ↩
St Thomas Aquinas, pp. 608–609, Catena Aurea: Commentary on the Four Gospels, Collected out of the Works of the Fathers: St. John. ↩

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Spirituality

Gratitude and Generosity

by Jeffrey Miller May 31, 2025May 31, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

On this Feast of the Visitation of the Blessed Virgin Mary, I was thinking about the connection between gratitude and generosity. When we are grateful for what God has done for us and given us, with no merit of our own, we are also open to helping others. If our gratitude is a self-gratitude (pat yourself on your back), that we have successfully avoided some problems because of our own skill or even just happenstance, any generosity we have is muted. If it is of our own doing, then we must protect it and will often think of others in difficult circumstance as deserving of their situation. When you think you deserve any good you received; you are less likely to serve others.

Mary, as a magnifier of the Lord, does not just observe and wonder at her role. Mary responded to news of Elizabeth’s pregnancy with immediate generosity. Setting out on a journey to see her and Zechariah. There is no hesitancy in her faith and trust.

Part of serving others is to observe others. Mary at the Wedding at Cana observes there is no wine and responds by telling Jesus about this. When Jesus answers her, by proxy, she instructs all of us to “Do whatever He tells you.” As a handmaid to the Lord, this is how she lived in gratitude and generosity. As a side note, she did not instruct at Cana, “Understand whatever He tells you.” Mary was forthright in her questions on two occasions.

Today’s feast and my minor reflection on it were also influenced by the role of gratitude in St. Thérèse’s life.

From the ICS Study Edition of “Story of a Soul”[1]

Thérèse begins Story of a Soul with a dilemma. She believed that she was under obedience to write down her childhood memories but felt that by doing so “it would distract my heart by too much concentration on myself” (S, 13). Thérèse found a solution to her predicament in how she would reflect upon her past. “I am going to write…my thoughts on the graces God deigned to grant me” (S, 15).In short, Thérèse chose to look at her life through the lens of what God had done for her rather than through the lens of what she had done or failed to do. Thérèse mused upon her life from the vantage point of how God had graced it. In consequence, Thérèse was filled with gratitude. “It seems to me that if a little flower could speak, it would tell simply what God has done for it without trying to hide its blessings” (S, 15).

“It is the spirit of gratitude which draws upon us the overflow of God’s grace,” said Thérèse, “for no sooner have we thanked Him for one blessing than he hastens to send us ten additional favours in return. Then, when we show our gratitude for these new gifts, He multiplies His benedictions to such a degree that there seems to be a constant stream of divine grace ever coming our way.” The truth contained in Thérèse’s words is not that God sends more blessings when we are grateful but rather that we become more aware of the abundant blessings that we have.

“Story of a Soul: Study Edition”, prepared by Fr. Marck Foley, OCD https://www.icspublications.org/products/story-of-a-soul-study-edition ↩

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Book Review Prayer Punditry

“The Heart and Center of Catholicism”

by Jeffrey Miller April 26, 2025April 26, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

I found this interesting when I read this in Kevin Symonds’ book “Pope Leo XIII and the Prayer to St. Michael: An Historical and Theological Examination.” I found it timely as the Cardinals gather for the coming Conclave.

Our contemporary period is marked by continued governmental assaults on the liberty of the Church, inter-ecclesial disunity and scandal. If demons were involved with such activities in Leo’s day, it is even more imperative to implore the Archangel’s intercession. Perhaps it was more significant than first realized for Pope Francis to have consecrated the Vatican City State to Sts. Michael and Joseph on July 5, 2013 in these words:

O glorious Archangel St. Michael … watch over this City and over the Apostolic See, the heart and center of Catholicism, so that it may faithfully live according to the Gospel and in the exercise of heroic charity…. May you be a bulwark against every act which threatens the serenity of the Church; may you be the sentinel of our thoughts, which frees us from the siege of a worldly mentality; may you be the spiritual leader, who sustains us in the good fight of faith.[1]

Following the lead of the Pastors of the Church, let us pray God through the intercession of St. Michael the Archangel “for the liberty and exaltation” of the Church over her enemies.

This occurred when the Pope was blessing a new new statue of St. Michael the Archangel in the Vatican Gardens. In attendance was also Pope Benedict XVI.

There will be a lot of attention poured on the Vatican now and in the coming weeks, so it is very appropriate to pray for intercession from St. Michael the Archangel and St. Joseph (who has the title “Terror of Demons”).

As for Kevin Symonds’ book:

“We set out to examine the claim that Leo received a vision that was behind the composing of the Prayer to St. Michael the Archangel.”

This is a carefully researched book exploring the development of this prayer and the varied accounts that have surrounded around it. Most of these popular accounts are either false, developed much later, or have no evidential sustenance to them. What can be determined is a fascinating story in and of itself. At least half of this book is footnotes, sources, translations, etc.

Kevin’s translation from a radio vaticana article. ↩

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Humor Prayer

Post-Lent Report

by Jeffrey Miller April 23, 2025April 23, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

After a season of some fasting and penances, I get on my scale, and it is just as I feared. My ego was roughly at the same weight. I thought perhaps that humility, like muscle, weighs more and that accounts for this. Unlikely.

Each Lent I go in with some expectations of not just seek detachment from materials things, but seeking more attachment to Jesus. Well really, I start off with more materialistic goals of “giving things up” and forgetting about gaining more of all that matters.

I came across this today from Rev. Fr. Peter T. Rohrbach’s book on St. Teresa of Avila, “Conversation with Christ.” From a chapter where he writes on meditation and gives examples.

My eye runs down the page, and I continue reading: “For a man does himself more harm if he seeks not Jesus, than the whole world and all his enemies could do.” … This is something of which I must convince myself and work into the very fabric of my life: that the most grave evil which could befall me is separation from You.

Once again, I was stuck on the process and not on the goal. Thus, setting myself up for disappointment in my Lenten disciplines. I slowly learn that perhaps the worst thing that could happen to me is if I was totally successful in these disciplines and thus attributed any success to my perseverance and effort.

“Homo proponit, sed Deus disponit”, “Man proposes, but God disposes.”, The Imitation of Christ, Book I, Chapter 19.

So “Yeah!” on my failure to “Lent” as I would want. It is impossible to take a selfie snapshot of your own interior life and understand everything going on. Do I love God and others more? I hope so. I at least desire it. Even progress on a glacier scale is progress.

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Humor Prayer

Stay in your lane

by Jeffrey Miller April 15, 2025April 15, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

One discouragement in prayer is knowing that you are not praying as you ought. It is not just the intentions you might pray for or the attempts to have a conversation with Jesus. For me, it is all the distractions in prayer. Even more so, the interior distractions that take your focus away.

In general, the saints have told us that when we realize we have become distracted, is to return our focus to praying. Repeat as necessary.

St. Teresa of Avila talked about such tendencies as “wild horses.”

Whoever experiences the affliction these distractions cause will see that they are not his fault; he should not grow anxious, which makes things worse, or tire himself trying to put order into something that at the time doesn’t have any, that is, his mind. He should just pray as best he can; or even not pray, but like a sick person strive to bring some relief to his soul; let him occupy himself in other works of virtue. This advice now is for persons who are careful and who have understood that they must not speak simultaneously to both God and the world.¹

So there I was, kneeling in prayer before the Blessed Sacrament with minimal external distractions and popping in and out of prayer. If somebody had been in a mental lane behind me, they would be calling 911 about the probably drunk driver ahead of them. I am distracted by thinking about distractions and wanting to return to some attempt at prayer. If only I could get warnings when I am veering off. To quickly return my focus.

So I thought about how cool it would be to have Botts’ dots, those round, raised pavement markers that warn you when you are losing focus and get you back on the straight and narrow. I think, maybe I should write about this metaphor. So convoluted of going from prayer to distraction, to thinking about distractions, thinking about metaphors for distraction, then thinking about writing about distractions.

I once joked my strategy should be to sit down and spend time in distraction before Mass, and that prayer would break out to interrupt my attempt at distraction.

I had recently heard a caller to Catholic Answers Live talk to Jimmy Akin, complaining about his ADHD and difficulty in prayer. To loosely paraphrase what Jimmy said, he talked about how it is part of our survival mechanism that we are not totally focused on only one thing. That we have a certain “bounciness” and that the called just had more “bounciness.” That is a metaphor I can absorb and to bounce back when I am aware of my bounciness.

St. Teresa of Avila, “The Way of Perfection”, Chapter 24, 5

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Spirituality

Echoing through creation

by Jeffrey Miller March 25, 2025March 25, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

I was thinking about how some events echo through creation. In the Genesis creation narrative, we have God’s fiat to bring about creation and light. From chaos to order.

“Dixitque Deus: Fiat lux. Et facta est lux”—“And God said: Let there be light. And there was light.”

The day four narrative of the first chapter of Geneses, we have works of distinction and adornment.

One event I was reflecting on that continues to echo, or more accurately radiate, throughout creation, is the cosmic microwave background (CMB). This was first accidentally detected on May 20, 1964 by two American radio astronomers in New Jersey. They won the Nobel Prize in Physics for this, along with a Soviet scientist. The detection of CMB provided significant evidence for the Fr. George Lemaître’s “Primordial Atom” theory, better known as the “Big Bang” theory. Fred Hoyle was wrong about the steady-state model, but boy could he come up with a catchy disparaging name for a competing theory.

The specific event I was reflecting on while at Adoration today was another fiat and one that still echoes throughout creation and discovered well before 1964. The initialism is not something like CMB this time, but BVM. Mary’s fiat is much more impactful for every single one of us.

“Fiat mihi secundum verbum tuum”—“Let it be done to me according to your word.” (Luke 1:38)

"Annunciation of San Giovanni Valdarno" Fra Angelico

“But Jesus’ conception itself requires an act of faith that infinitely transcends that of Abraham (and especially that of Sarah, who laughed in her unbelief). The Word of God who wills to take flesh in Mary needs a receptive Yes that is spoken with the whole person, spirit and body, with absolutely no (even unconscious) restrictions, that offers the entirety of human nature as a locus for the Incarnation. Receiving and letting in need not be passive; in relation to God, they are, when done in faith, always supreme activity. If Mary’s Yes had contained even the shadow of a demurral, of a “so far and no farther”, a stain would have clung to her faith and the child could not have taken possession of the whole of human nature. The freedom of Mary’s Yes from all hesitation comes perhaps most clearly to light where she also says Yes to her marriage with Joseph and leaves it to God to reconcile it with her new task.” (Hans Urs von Balthasar)¹

This was such a complete yes, it is hard to compare it to anything in our experience. The purity of my “yesses” is blended with wheat and tares. Try to say “All generations will call me blessed” uncontaminated with pride and without laughing at the thought. Mary could. Yet, our own fiat to God and final perseverance also leads to the beatific vision. Where truly all in that state are called blessed by all generations.

“Mary: The Church at the Source”, Josef Cardinal Ratzinger, Hans Urs von Balthasar, Ignatius Press.

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Spirituality

Another Heaven

by Jeffrey Miller February 6, 2025February 6, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

In St. Teresa of Avila’s masterwork “The Interior Castle” when talking about the seventh dwelling place, she is describing Spiritual Marriage:

For just as in heaven, so in the soul His Majesty must have a room where He dwells alone. Let us call it another heaven. It’s very important for us, sisters, not to think the soul is something dark.

For those not in a state of grace, she describes this as a “dark prison.” I love how she goes from talking about the highest levels of sanctity this side of heaven to considering those not in a state of grace. Here, prayer is the opposite of the Pharisees prayer when comparing himself to the tax collector.

Let us take special care, sisters, to beg this mercy of Him and not be careless, for it is a most generous alms to pray for those who are in mortal sin. Suppose we were to see a Christian with his hands fastened behind his back by a strong chain, bound to a post, and dying of hunger, not because of lack of food, for there are very choice dishes beside him, but because he cannot take hold of the food and eat, and even has great loathing for it; and suppose he sees that he is about to breathe his last and die, not just an earthly death but an eternal one. Wouldn’t it be a terrible cruelty to stand looking at him and not feed him? Well, then, what if through your prayer the chains could be loosed? The answer is obvious. For the love of God I ask you always to remember in your prayers souls in mortal sin.

What struck me is that this specific love of neighbor is easy to talk about as just an ideal, but not put into actual practice. Those you disdain, you do not pray for, because you have torn away their humanity with your own self-righteousness.

I thought about St. Teresa’s special wonder and delight after the hard work of navigating the politics and the planning of establishing a new foundation. That delight when a bishop or priest has established the Tabernacle in the new foundation and Mass is first said there. Jesus’ presence in this way radically changes everything. She desires this same light to be lit in all of us as Temples of the Holy Spirit. What was once dark, can be another heaven.

Reference: St. Teresa of Avila’s “The Interior Castle: Study Edition 2nd Edition”, ICS Publications

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Book Review

My Year in Books – 2024 Edition

by Jeffrey Miller January 9, 2025January 9, 2025

written by Jeffrey Miller

This is a quick glance at the books that brought me some joy this year. I read a lot, retain little, and have no pretensions towards being a literary critic. So if any of the books referenced catch your interest, look up a more capable reviewer regarding them.

The books I have read this year were mostly culled from the suggestions of others much wiser than I. I feel so indebted for such suggested since they widen my horizons.

Last year also included a re-read of the 21 books of the Patrick O’Brien Aubrey/Maturin series. I think I loved it even more this time. O’Brien really puts his characters through the wringer, bringing them more alive in their faults and virtues.

So looking back at 200+ books during 2024, these stand out for me. This will not be in any order other than my thoughts as I looked through the year.

Fiction

“Space Pirates Of Andromeda” by John C. Wright

I had been awaiting this start of a new series for some years now. This first book in a series of 12 did not disappoint at all. It was like returning to classic space opera and it’s varied roots. The series was spurred by John C. Wright frustration after he and his family say “The Last Jedi.” As I remember on the way home discussing the movie with his family, he started to architect a plot using the imaginative elements and inspirations that make the Original Star Wars so much fun. I have noted before that John has so many creative and fun ideas that is like an embarrassment of riches in his stories. This was so much fun! Plus this is a great cover.

“The Olympian Affair” by Jim Butcher

I was very happy to read the awaited continuation of The Cinder Spires series. This wasn’t a great book, but a very good one. It was like a returning friend and good company.

His son James J. Butcher has also started a promising urban fantasy series with “Long Past Dues.”

“My Effin’ Life” by Geddy Lee

As a Rush fan since I first saw the band perform around 1975, I had been looking forward to his biography. There was a lot to enjoy, and a lot to admire about Geddy and his outlooks. His story about his parents, who were imprisoned in Auschwitz is so heartwarming. It was not easy for him to do the research to fill in the gaps. Plus reading about the inside of the group, their creative process, studio time and their friendship is a plus. Still, I felt some sadness in reading his biography, the aspects warped by the Rock n’ Roll lifestyle.

“Things as They Are” by Paul Horgan

An author I knew nothing about, but this book in particular was brought to my attention by Amy Welborn. I had bought a copy of this 1951 novel from Cluny Media. In one of her articles on this book, Amy Welborn wrote:

“It is not a rollicking or picaresque novel. It’s quiet, episodic, and subtle. But it’s also powerful, lucid, and authentic-—a hidden gem of English-language Catholic literature and of the coming-of-age novel.”

For me this was more than a typical coming-of-age novel, of dealing with the disillusionment from childhood dreams. I was rather surprised by some of the topics dealt with in this novel. The prose and the observations drew me in, while not feeling that I was being manipulated along just a story line. This is a great novel. Not long after finishing reading this, I heard Chris Check discuss Paul Horgan, specifically his book “The Saintmaker’s Christmas Eve” on archive.org I look forward to reading more of his books.

“Death Comes For The Archbishop” by Willa Cather

I had thought I had already read this, when really, somehow, I had it confused with “Murder in the Cathedral.” I am very happy to have read it, and enjoyed most of it.

“Thursday Murder Club” by Richard Osman

I read three book in the series this year and all were enjoyable. The premise of four retirees meeting together to solve cold cases is interesting. More interesting are the characters, who could have become just stereotypes. The cases are interesting and there are wise observations along the way. Picked up because of Julie at Happy Catholic

“What Monstrous Gods” by Rosamund Hodge

To quote Melanie Bettinelli’s review“I will read anything Rosamund Hodge writes.”

I remember some years ago coming across her first book that was being promoted by a site regarding Young Adult fiction during the summer months. I loved how she takes on well-known fairy tales and instead of simply subverting them, makes them more real. Moral choices are not just character arcs. I should read this again this year.

“C” by Maurice Baring

Baring was a friend of Chesterton and while I know of him, I had never read anything by him. I picked this up after reading C in a Nutshell, a review by Joseph Pearce. I know I am really drawn into a character when I want to enter the pages and argue with them. I very much enjoyed this. Regardless read Peace’s nutshell to get an idea why this novel should be read.

“Tower of Silence” by Larry Correia

Saga of the Forgotten Warrior Book 4. I always enjoy Larry Correia’s books, but this series surpasses anything he has written. This is a serious fantasy series that I would not have expected from him. I love this series so much, that when a new addition in the series comes out – I go through the previous ones again. There is a new entry out, that hasn’t made it to Audible yet.

“Disquiet Gods” – Christopher Ruocchio

This was book six in “The Sun Eaters” series. I have totally bought into this series since “Empire of Silence” was first released. This is slow-burn character development on a epic scale over centuries. You come to know the arc the story is riding towards, yet there is more than a typical heroes journey, with surprises on the way.

“Jayber Crow” by Wendell Berry

I knew little of Wendell Berry, other than his connection with Russell Kirk and his mention by others. So I had asked someone who worked for Kirk and was still friends with Berry, where I should start. He suggested “Jayber Crow.” Again, I wish I had the literary chops to described this delightful novel. Jayber, as a character, is someone you would both really want to know and to also argue into the long hours of the night. Just so much to take in as Jayber’s life is relayed. The last paragraph was simply wonderful. I also read his book “Hannah Coulter” this year, which was also enjoyable.

“The History of Tom Jones, a Foundling” by Henry Fielding

Sometime I feel like I have a duty to read “classic” books almost like it is an infringement on my time. Then I find, once again, that they were well worth my time. I was not expecting the relating of this story to be so fun. I was especially not expecting a book published in 1749 to break the fourth-wall so often. The narrator is constantly playing with you along the way in more ways than just plot elements. The audio book version narrated by Kenneth Danzinger, for me, made it even better.

“The Case of the Gilded Fly” by Edmund Crispin

Another mystery series that was recommended to my from a couple of friends. I read the first three of the series last year, and will be returning to them this year.

Gervase Fen, an Oxford don and professor of literature, who thrives off solving mysteries, is ready to help.

He is also ready to annoy people along the way. Overly contrived plots, but part of the fun.

“Tress of the Emerald Sea” by Brandon Sanderson

I had read several of Sanderson’s books last year. An author I generally enjoy. I had also started last year and finished early this year his massive entry in the the Stormlight Archive series “Wind and Truth.” Yet it was “Tress of the Emerald Sea” I enjoyed the most. Part of his secret project and one he wrote for his wife. The fairy tale style adventure melded well with Sanderson’s humor. In other novels his humor can feel forced, or not quite fitting.

There are other authors new to me, that I just started to step into, that will continue to inform my opinion of this year.

Theology, Church History, Spirituality, etc

“The Everlasting Man” – A Guide to G.K. Chesterton’s Masterpiece

Last year Word on Fire released this edition which contains footnotes and chapter summaries by Dale Ahlquist. The footnotes are often even more Chesterton quotes. I had read this book a couple of times previously over the years. Last year I read this edition twice. There is just so much here that it can seem overwhelming, but you can still delight in what you grasped on a read-through.

“The Tyranny of the Banal: On the Renewal of Catholic Moral Theology” by David Deane

I would give this book an award just for the title. This is a book I read in the middle of last year, yet so much of what I read I have retained and continued to think about.

I am suggesting that core elements in the genetic code of modernity—for example, a reduction of the real to the phenomenal and a reduction of reason to the measurable—are wholly parasitic upon Christian moral theology Where they abide, Christian moral perspectives die.

This is a central message and is explanatory for what I have observed. Engaging the culture is much more of an uphill battle than we seem to envisage. If all we had was our own abilities to persuade, it would be an almost impossible task. Thankfully, grace pervades reality and this is a mission field we must give our best efforts at. Knowing the difficulties is not a deterrence, but a help.

I also found his describing more modern racism based on skin color and feature is largely driven by reducing the human person to the empirical. He makes a very good case for this. I recommend watching this interview of David Deane by Larry Chapp and Rodney Howsare.

“The Good, the Bad, and the Beautiful: History in Three Dimensions.” by Joseph Pearce.

From my review last year:

Each chapter covers a different century from the First Century to the Twentieth Century. His framework gives us a thumbnail snapshot of what is good, bad, and beautiful in each century covered. Even with so much to cover and so much that necessarily had to be left out, I enjoyed what he concentrated on.

His brevity could still include fascinating details to bring alive these points in history. I could imagine the amount of effort this book took to weave together a considerable amount of research and whittling it down to size.

One thing I like about the format is you get some sense of each century on its own merits. Some history can relate it is a march of progress, which is an artificially contrived framework. I consider this an insightful and brilliant work and one I would want to read again.

“Two Sisters in the Spirit” by Hans Urs Von Balthasar

I have read a certain amount regarding St. Therese and St. Elizabeth of the Trinity within the Carmelite perspective. So it is rather joyful to find that Von Balthasar had a lot of edifying comments on these two saints and insights that helped me to see things I missed.

“Advent of the Heart” by Alfred Delp

This collection of the season sermons and prison writings from Fr. Alfred Delp were excellent Advent/Christmas readings. These are reflections that go deep and bring you along with him as we await the coming of Christ. I had come across some of his writings before in the reflections in the Magnifcat magazine, so I am thankful to have this book to return to again.

“Rabbles Riots and Ruins” by Mike Aquilina

Mike Aquilina never disappoints when writing on Church history. His method of storytelling draws out details and conclusions and keeps you engaged. This book covers twelve ancient cities and how they were evangelized. Important stories and it is is good to remember what also happened to some of them, to not grow cocky in thinking Christendom is some steady march of evangelism. We should already be disabused of this notion, but still we need reminders.

After I read this one I read his books from the “Father of the Faith” series, this dovetailed nicely and reinforced the time period for me. The books of the series I read were “Saint Athanasius, Saint John Christendom, Saint Irenaeus, and Saint Augustine.”

“Sorrow Built a Bridge” by Katherine Burton

Tells the story of the life of Mother Alphonsa. I had known of Rose Hawthorne, the daughter of Nathaniel Hawthorne, and her work in starting what became the Dominican Sisters of Hawthorne providing care of cancer patients. Reading through the first half of the book I was surprised by many details of her family life and the time they spent together in Europe. Her fathers encouragement of her literary skills along with his deep Christian devotion. Her life takes a Jobian detour with so much tragedy. Instead of turning inward in despair, she moves outward in love. Such a well-told and amazing story. Out of print, but can be found on archive.org.

Other highlights in this category were:

“Paul a New Covenant Jew” by Brant Pitre, Michael P Barber, and John A Kincaid
“The Holiness of Ordinary People” by Madeleine Delbrêl
“Solzhenitsyn: A Soul in Exile” by Joseph Pearce
“The Mind of Benedict XVI” by Richard G Declue Jr
“The Risen Christ” by Caryll Houselander
“The Papacy: Revisiting the Debate Between Catholics and Orthodox” by Erick Ybarra
“Saint Teresa of Avila” by Marcelle Auclair
“Introduction to the Spiritual Life” by Louis Bouyer

Since I had to give a class on prayer for OCIA last year, I read a bunch of beginning books on prayer to be able to collate my thoughts.

All the books I read had much to recommend them. My top choice to give to somebody on prayer is “Prayer for Beginners” by Peter Kreeft. He provided generally helpful information, along with his appropriate usage of humor, and playing around with ideas. The second one I might choose to give someone is “Prayer Primer” by Thomas Dubay. This goes deeper into the subject and might not be as approachable fro some beginners. Still, this is really good for those on the journey to go deeper into prayer.

At the end of 2023 was the death of Pope Benedict XVI, so 2024 was also a return to books written by him I had already read along with books on him and his theology. This year I hope to take a deeper dive in his theology and go through his major works in a suggested reading order. My reading of Ratzinger/Benedict over the years is very scattershot, diving into books that threw me in the deep end that I was not fully prepared for. Maybe that aspect of his books will always exist for me, but what I do absorb is so wondrous and worthwhile.

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Humor Punditry Theology

I Have a Confession to Make

by Jeffrey Miller December 18, 2024December 18, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Early in my journey within the Church, I experienced many visceral negative reactions.

One was the terminology of the “Reconciliation Room”, compared to the “Confessional Booth.” Part of this was just my ignorance in thinking that reconciliation was a more wimpy word. Added to that was the aesthetics of the reconciliation rooms I found in parishes, or lack of aesthetics. More like a repurposed closet than a fitting place for such an amazing sacrament. If it was a closet, there would be danger of all my past sins falling on me like the junk in Fibber McGee’s hall closet.

Later I would learn this about the world “reconciliation” in Fr. Blake Britton’s book “Reclaiming Vatican II.”

The combination recon means “to come back together.” Cilia is the Latin word for “eyelash.” To be reconciled, therefore, means to be eyelash-to-eyelash with God, to be brought into such a profound intimacy that your eyelashes are touching each other.

I still very much dislike the reconciliation room that is like a multi-purpose room that is repurposed as the parish needs on a day-to-day basis. That the sacrament is available, at all, is what I should be grateful for.

Puns spur many of my internal theological reflections. I am attempting to meditate and then I play with a word, looking for possible puns. That this happens in my mind will not surprise those who know my predilection for puns.

Before Mass one morning, I had observed a line of people in line for reconciliation. I invented a portmanteau “retcon-ciliation” and that this had deeper theological significance I could reflect on. Retcon, the short term for retroactive continuity, as used in various forms of fiction.

For many of us, the story of our lives comes to a point where we want to break out of the restraints we have placed on ourselves. Wanting a new storyline, instead of the constant reruns of our past mistakes. How can I alter previous established patterns of vice and break from them? Am I my authentic self if I break out of them? It is easy to equate our sins with the identification of ourselves. I can think of myself as a fraud if I allow God’s grace to transform me.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us. (Ps 103:11–12).

Retconning in fiction usually comes across as just a trick to extend a franchise into the future and to either alter or ignore past events. Retconciliation as done in the sacrament, can let us become our authentic selves less marred by sin.

In fiction, we can be annoyed when a character presumed dead, is retconned back. This appears inconsistent and we can lose trust in the storyteller. With retconciliation, you may be brought back from death in mortal sin, and this is totally consistent with a loving God.

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Parody Prayer

A Mandatory Take

by Jeffrey Miller October 31, 2024October 31, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

This will not be one of those regarding posts regarding the mascot “Luce”, that this is of Satan, or that this character is going to play a substantial role in evangelization. There is a lot of more sane middle ground here. An area that I just want to think about, play around in for fun and, of course, make puns.

To be honest, my first reaction was pure hot take. There was something surreal about the picture of Archbishop Rino Fisichella, looking at the 3D figure of the anime-inspired character of Luce and reaching out to touch the pilgrim’s staff. Then the statement that this is part of the Vatican’s goal to appeal to and better engage with the new generation through “pop culture so beloved by our youth.”

Once the meme reactions started pouring out regarding the art itself, I saw that this was some great fun and at least a step above some of the Vatican’s previous logos for events.

When I heard Larry Chapp’s jokingly reference to it as a “Catholic Chucky”, it reminded me of my initial reaction to the 3D figure.

I thought about what a Catholic Chucky would entail. A repentant Chucky that wanted to make up for all the evils and murderous deeds he had done. After a long period of years involved in nihilistic violence and purposeless havoc, would he see past his emptiness to ponder something greater?

I thought about this paragraph from G.K. Chesterton, included in “Essays on Shaw”:

And in practice every man is a theologian, even when he is not a theist. The great later work of Shaw is in Back to Methuselah; in which he says men must live three hundred years. And I say that if he did live three hundred years he would be a Catholic.

I thought about Alessandro Serenelli, who murdered and stabbed Maria Goretti 14 times. A man seemingly not open to repentance in the decades he was in prison. A man who repented and was at her canonization when Pope Pius XII declared Maria Goretti as a saint. An event he attended with Maria’s mother and four of Maria’s siblings.

So a converted Chucky instead of sending people to the hospital, visited them at the hospital. Taken on a confirmation name of Saint Julian the Hospitaller, the patron saint for murderers. A transformed Chucky that would encourage a child to grow closer to Jesus. To not prey on others, but to pray for others. Instead of carrying a knife stabbing people, to teach the child the Stabat Mater. Instead of decadence, to pray decades of the Rosary.

A movie based on this would obviously be:

Childs Pray Movie Poster — Child’s Pray Movie Poster

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Apologetics Book Review

Everybody is ignorant

by Jeffrey Miller September 12, 2024October 31, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Since learning of this quote from Will Rogers, I liked it for its charity for other’s knowledge, and how it applies to my vast areas of ignorance. I was thinking about this regarding when I first starting reading the Bible.

Growing up, I was interested in Greek myths and the tales involved. I especially enjoyed the Odyssey. This served me well to discern some literary references. When it came to references to Bible stories, I absorbed some of what I thought of as mythology from culture and the media. I had zero interest in exploring these myths further, as I had done with Greek and Roman mythology.

When reading scripture for the first time, all the stories I knew rather shocked me, but did not know they were from the Bible. I was more surprised by all that I found I did not know were biblical allusions.

I spent many hours of my childhood in Mt. Tabor Park in Portland, Or. It was really just across the street from where we lived. So, imagine my surprise when I learned that Mt. Tabor derives its name from a mountain in Israel, which has traditionally been associated with the Transfiguration. I guess not surprising since I hadn’t heard of the Transfiguration either.

> “A young man who wishes to remain a sound Atheist cannot be too careful of his reading. There are traps everywhere” – C.S Lewis
Surprised by Joy

This mystery of the Transfiguration tantalised me, as I perceived there was so much going on here that I only had an inkling (pun always intended) of this at a surface level. Over the years, as read more about this event, I came to appreciate how deep this mystery went. While it is uncertain that Mount Tabor was the site of the Transfiguration, just the name’s connection with what was my childhood playground.

Last month, after the Feast of the Transfiguration, Dale Price wrote::

While vividly-central in the East, it is recognized that August 6 passes by almost unnoticed on the Western liturgical calendar, despite its clearly-biblical provenance.

In passing, I might have noted how this feast had become important to me. I had not thought about it not getting much attention, at least in the Western liturgical calendar.

Dale writes:

Evangelical theologian Patrick Schreiner has written an absolutely essential book on the subject, The Transfiguration of Christ: An Exegetical and Theological Reading. Published this year, Schreiner notes the disparate emphasis between East and West:

In the Western tradition, this day passes by unsung, unhonored, unacknowledged. Consider: how many sermons have you heard on the transfiguration? How many songs do you know about the transfiguration? The transfiguration is a curiosity in want of practical significance.

I immediately bought this book and I agree with Dale’s more knowledgeable assessment. I took a lot of notes to further reflect on, as it had deepened those areas of interest I already had. We should pay close attentions to any theophanies in scripture, and the Transfiguration is deeply rich in signification and tie backs to events in the Old and New Testament. The time-cues in the synoptic Gospels referencing the Transfiguration had caught my attention previously. That Jesus predicts that some of the disciples will not die until they see the Son of Man coming in his kingdom.

It tickled me when Patrick Schreiner mentioned in his book, “The campus of my first teaching position, Western Seminary, is situated under the shadow of another Mount Tabor in Portland, Oregon.”

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Humor

Sacramental Disposal, LLC

by Jeffrey Miller July 18, 2024July 18, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Many people who have been Catholic for a length of time come to have a similar problem. Just what do you do with all the blessed sacramentals you have accumulated that have seen better days?

You have worn a scapular so long that you can no longer tell which image is the front or the back or it has become so tattered that it is basically now a string.

Your cat or your own clumsiness has knocked over a statue so many times that the hands, arms, and even the head are reattached multiple times with superglue.

You have a drawer full of rosary parts from broken rosaries you are going to get around to fix one day.
Or perhaps the crucifixes broken and now accidentally a Tau cross and you’re not a Franciscan. Or the ones where, apparently, Jesus answered the mocking Pharisees by coming down from the Cross.

Then there are the tarnished and corroded religious medals that you’re keeping around or will clean up later.

So exactly what do you do about this?

Eventually, sacramentals wear down. Crucifixes break, as do rosaries. Candles burn out, and scapulars tear. If a sacramental reaches a state where it is beyond repair or its effective use, the object should be disposed of properly. Even in a tattered state, the object has been blessed by the Church and should be treated correctly, even in private possession.
The proper way to dispose of a sacramental is to burn it or bury it. Not only do these methods of disposal show the correct reverence, but they prevent the sacramental from falling into the wrong hands and from desecration—the loss of a particular quality of sacredness. Sacramentals are desecrated by abusive behavior, crude use, or destruction to the point of being unusable. Even desecrated sacramentals, to maintain the reverence due to them, should be disposed of in the ways laid out above. Shaun McAfee, Catholic Answers magazine

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Parody

TL;DH (Too Long;Didn’t Hear)

by Jeffrey Miller July 5, 2024July 5, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Pope Francis recently appealed once again about the length of homilies.

And the homily, that comment by the celebrant, must help to transfer the Word of God from the book to life. But for this, the homily must be brief: an image, a thought and a sentiment. The homily must not go on for more than eight minutes, because after that, with time attention is lost and the people fall asleep, and they are right. A homily must be like that. And I want to say this to priests, who talk a lot, very often, and one does not understand what they are talking about. A brief homily: a thought, a sentiment and a cue for action, for what to do. No more than eight minutes. Because the homily must help transfer the Word of God from the book to life. General Audience, 12 June 2024

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On the first day of the week, when we were gathered together to break bread, Paul talked with them, intending to depart on the next day, and he prolonged his speech until midnight. There were many lamps in the upper room where we were gathered. And a young man named Eutychus, sitting at the window, sank into a deep sleep as Paul talked still longer. And being overcome by sleep, he fell down from the third story and was taken up dead. But Paul went down and bent over him, and taking him in his arms, said, “Do not be alarmed, for his life is in him.” (Acts 20:7–10)

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Log the impactful portions of the homily that got through to you. Just because you heard something a 100 times, does not mean you actually heard the message.
Access biometric indicators such as heart rate and Galvanic Skin Response (GSR).
- Was the introduction joke really as funny or necessary as the priest thought it was?
- Measure engagement of an aggregate of the congregation with data integrity, removing anomalous results.
- How many times did the parishioner look at their watch or phone to see what time it is?
- Was the parishioner developing pew sores because of the homily’s length?
Anonymized data analysis to be used by clerics to help with their homiletic skills. End-to-end-encryption is used to ensure the privacy of feedback made. Although a data leak can occur when a well-known complainer about everything is deduced.

Included are community building features just for fun!

For Laetare and Gaudete Sunday, rate the color of the rose vestments used.
- Access camera to identify matches against the rose color palette.
On Trinity Sunday test your knowledge of the Councils of Nicaea and Chalcedon definitions and how many heretical analogies were used in the homily.

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Humor Scripture

A Shop Mark Would Like

by Jeffrey Miller June 30, 2024June 30, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Considering today’s Gospel, if I had an investor, I would create this business.

Every meal in this sandwich shop would cost $12. Exception would be a free meal for those who had spent all their money on physicians.

There would also be the Talitha cumi special, which you couldn’t tell anybody about.

Plus, all sandwiches would be delivered “immediately.”

If you are unfamiliar with the term “Markan sandwich.”

Mark’s ordering of the events may be chronological. However, Mark also has a special way of ordering material, which scholars call the “Markan sandwich.” A sandwich occurs when Mark interrupts one story with another before returning to the first. This allows Mark to contrast the two stories so that they shed light on each other. Jimmy Akin

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A statue of the Sacred Heart of Jesus at Chambly, Quebec, Canada.

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The Narrow Way Through the Sacred Heart of Jesus

by Jeffrey Miller June 7, 2024June 7, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

From the pierced Heart of Christ, symbol of the love which immolated Him on the Cross for us, came forth the Sacraments, represented by the water and the Blood flowing from the wound, and it is through these Sacraments that we receive the life of grace. Yes, it is eminently true to say that the Heart of Jesus was opened to bring us into life. Jesus once said, “Narrow is the gate… that leadeth to life” (Mt 7,14); but if we understand this gate to be the wound in His Heart, we can say that no gate could open to us with greater welcome. (Father Gabriel of St. Mary Magdalen, O.C.D., “Divine Intimacy”)

I like this metaphor of following the narrow way into Jesus’ heart. An image that shifts the focus from the narrowness and implied difficulty of the path to what we are created for. Teleology has fallen out of fashion, in part, to let us define for ourselves the meaning of all aspects of our life. In seeking to shed limits, we impose heavier limits on who we are and our call to holiness.

I know my concupiscent heart desires both to be drawn to Jesus’s heart and to the stone heart of the world in materialistic pleasures. In avoiding the narrowness of the path, I become more narrow by not expanding my trust. Jesus speaks of a narrowness that implies a focus, and not the narrowness of pride collapsed in on itself.

If you make “Temporary Promise” as a Secular Discalced Carmelite, you are supposed to take on a religious name used occasionally within the community. When I did so, my motive was initially to pick something super pious and impressive. Maybe something long to make it even more pious. Obviously, I have a long way to go regarding my motives. I finally settled on the Sacred Heart of Jesus as a personal focus of his love for us. I am not drawn too much of the imagery of the Sacred Heart in Catholic art, as it is does not fully conform to the beauty I sense in this image. More kitsch as in sentimental, than my mental tenuous grasp of the deeper meaning of this.

The name I ended up with was “St Thomas of the Sacred Heart.” The St. Thomas is two-fold. The Apostle St. Thomas who demanded empirical knowledge as I did in my days as an atheist. Along with the St. Thomas as in Aquinas who replied _Domine, non nisi Te_—that is, “Lord, nothing except you.” in answer to Jesus’ question to him for what reward he desires for his labour.

Getting back to Father Gabriel’s point that “we can say that no gate could open to us with greater welcome.”

²⁹ Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Mt 11:29–30)

I often struggle with this and think of it as counterintuitive. Knowing that this is true, while once again trying to do something apart from him. Avoiding commitment and inconvenience in dumb hope to coast towards Christ, I find more difficulty and pain. My avoidance of suffering has only led to more suffering.

Grace constantly gives us the opportunity to accept it. To reduce the discrepancy between knowing a truth and living conformed to that truth.

Joe Heschmeyer recently wrote about the establishment of The Feast of the Sacred Heart.

… we find devotion to the Sacred Heart throughout the Middle Ages, but it goes from being a personal devotion to a liturgical feast in no small part in response to the heresy of Jansenism. In the words of Pope Pius XI, “the feast of the Sacred Heart of Jesus was instituted at a time when men were oppressed by the sad and gloomy severity of Jansenism, which had made their hearts grow cold, and shut them out from the love of God and the hope of salvation.”

There is so much that I find important and consoling in what Joe Heschmeyer wrote, that I want to quote extensively from it, but please read it yourselves.

“even now, in a wondrous yet true manner, we can and ought to console that most Sacred Heart which is continually wounded by the sins of thankless men.” (Pope Pius XI, Quas Primas)

The cure for my thanklessness is to be thankful.

Our grounds for gratitude are really far greater than our powers of being grateful. (G. K. Chesterton, “Negative and Positive Morality”)

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Other

Time Travel and Fixing Up Our Past

by Jeffrey Miller May 22, 2024May 23, 2024

written by Jeffrey Miller

Recently I have been dipping into two series that both involved time travel and it got me thinking about the large number of books, series, and movies that involve time travel directly, alternate timelines, or time loops. Stories often have a mixture of these when they change the past, whether accidental or intentional.

You can see some of these elements in Dicken’s “A Christmas Carol”, “It’s a Wonderful Life”, “Groundhog’s Day”, “Back to the Future” series, “12 Monkeys”, “The Terminator,” series, etc. What I was thinking about specifically is why the subject is so interesting and what draws us most to these stories?

There are varied reasons that these plotlines, when done well, can be so compelling. For one, there is a fragility of events in our lives that could have gone otherwise. We have the intuition that we are not just acting out a scripted existence and so many details could have gone otherwise.

“Men spoke much in my boyhood of restricted or ruined men of genius: and it was common to say that many a man was a Great Might-Have-Been. To me it is a more solid and startling fact that any man in the street is a Great Might-Not-Have-Been.” (G. K. Chesterton, “Orthodoxy”, “IV The Ethics of Elfland”)

It is also intellectually fun to play with time travel paradoxes, although why your poor grandfather might be the target of such paradoxes is another story.

For me, the fascination with such plots is the idea of going back in time to prevent myself from taking trouble-filled paths in my life. I have day-dreamed about being able to tell my 18-year-old (or younger) self that most things I believed were false. Such a tempting daydream to remove all the wrinkles out of your lived experienced and thinking you would come out of this the person you want to be. This daydream would be endlessly recursive because there are things I would argue with my previous self just six months back in time.

The problem is you can end up in a recrimination time loop, always revisiting and lamenting your past actions. Even worse, if you are constantly blaming others, and that everything would be perfect otherwise. There is wisdom in knowing yourself, and even more reason when you realize how little you know yourself.

The other factor is discovering how our woundedness and the woundedness of others have shaped us. The meaning and role of suffering in our lives. As Peter Kreeft likes to note, “Rabbi Abraham Heschel says, ‘The man who has never suffered—what could he possibly know, anyway?’” I recently read Joseph Pearce’s revised authorized biography of Solzhenitsyn, and this was something Solzhenitsyn came to realize and that his time in the gulag was transformative for him. He became thankful for this suffering as he reflected on how he had previously ignored the surrounding problems to prefer an ideology over the effects of that ideology.

“But the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being.” Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn

Time travel related stories give us an “if only” to do a past patch up. Much harder is living in the present moment and learning from our past sins. As Catholics, to accept the forgiveness of our sins in the Sacrament of Confession. To spend too much time regretting the past and fretting the future gets us nowhere. We are called to love right now!

“The way to love anything is to realize that it may be lost.” (G. K. Chesterton, “The Advantages of Having One Leg,” Tremendous Trifles)

Another factor for me in this was today’s First Reading at Mass:

¹³ Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”—¹⁴ yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. ¹⁵ Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” ¹⁶ As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. ¹⁷ So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin. (James 4:13–17)

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