"My decision to leave Korn was hard in early 2004 to think about, but at the end of 2004 it was quite simple, actually. I wanted to learn how to be the best dad that I could be to my beautiful little girl.
"Right before I quit Korn, I caught my daughter walking around my house one day singing songs about sex and death that came from my band. I wasn’t having that anymore. When you have a 5-year-old daughter singing ‘All Day I Dream About Sex’, and ‘Dead Bodies Everywhere’ etc., it’s going to have an effect on you as a parent. Also, I was sick and tired of being a slave to the ol’ mighty buck at the expense of my family, my music, my happiness, my health, and my morals.
"I loved money more than everything in my life. Money was my god and it was going to kill me if I didn’t get my life in the correct order it needed to be in. I played Mr. Angry for too long. I wanted to feel love again in my heart.
"I’m not an angry Christian. I’m not better than anyone. Christians are supposed to despise the principalities that hurt the people in the world, not despise the people in the world. I think some Christians and non-Christian people are very confused about that.
"I left Korn because my child was starting to imitate her dad. I left Korn because i wasn’t happy anymore. I left Korn because I was supposed to leave Korn. I would still be in Korn right now if I was meant to be.
"After I left, Jesus healed me from a major alcohol and drug addiction, and most of all a broken heart.
"I feel like some people want me and my former bandmates to not get along like it’s some kind of battle between good and evil. Words in magazines get all twisted around. It’s lame! The stuff that was said in some recent interviews that I did wasn’t said in the context that it was written. I did say a couple things a few months ago, but I’ve apologized for them and I’ve moved on.
"I love all my brothers in Korn. I was just as much of a whiny rock star as they were. The lifestyle made us that way. I heard that those guys are closer than ever now. That makes me happy and sad at the same time. I’m happy because they are happy, but I’m sad because I’m not there with them in the happiness. All I know for sure is that I love Jesus and my baby girl with all my heart. [Source]
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“I walk with you brother in Christ”