{"id":18127,"date":"2025-09-24T22:39:49","date_gmt":"2025-09-25T02:39:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.splendoroftruth.com\/curtjester\/?p=18127"},"modified":"2025-09-24T22:40:34","modified_gmt":"2025-09-25T02:40:34","slug":"the-spiritual-life-and-memes","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.splendoroftruth.com\/curtjester\/2025\/09\/the-spiritual-life-and-memes\/","title":{"rendered":"The Spiritual Life and Memes"},"content":{"rendered":"
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I know I like to play the \u201cIf only \u2026\u201d game. A game I play with the past, present, and future. If only I had done this or that at some particular time or reacted to a situation as I would have reacted to it after plenty of afterthought and analysis. It is much easier to assign various blame-weights to events and circumstances that prevent you from doing what I would have done. To think about all the pain I could have avoided.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Now that I have adequately reflected on something and identified root causes I am all ready to fix that problem; and I will do so next Monday or perhaps the Monday after that. Never put off until tomorrow what you can put off \u201cputting off\u201d until the day after tomorrow.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Surely, this time around I am going to get serious about the spiritual life.<\/p>\n\n\n

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I find it can be such a trap to dwell in my own woundedness. All the lacks I perceive in myself. I feel like an impostor even feeling like I might have impostor syndrome. That I will be caught in all my BS. Both craving attention and scared to death when I get any; knowing it is undeserved. In those moments of self-pity I turn to the \u201cIf only \u2026\u201d game to assign those blame-weights to circumstances, events, and persons.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Perhaps, some form of sanity returns when I see the mask reveal for what is keeping me from growing in holiness.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Almost all of those wounds I gripe internally about are self-inflicted. My own friendly-fire. Yet I have some gratitude for those exact same wounds. Suffering can be sanctified and directed towards helping other persons. A heightened awareness of the pains and sufferings of others, to bring me out of myself into the Body of Christ.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Plus I write things like this to poke fun at myself and my overwrought-seriousness at times. If you you learn to laugh at yourself, you will have a lifetime of laughter and plenty of opportunity for it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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